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Hmmm, today is jsut another lecture, but soemthing struck me when mentioned by the lecturer. "I dun understnad why there are few first year students doing this course. I dun highly recommend you do it in your first year." Well, i just though, hmmm, he is just saying that without realising that few of us actually have advance standing.

Well, it did struck me as he went on and on during the lecture. Not about us bing first year students, but about the topic. Its the media reform of Australia. This struck me really hard. Me not being all completely familiar with the media policy of Australia was shocked when I realised there was going to be a reform. Well, it kinda sound like a huge reform, and I went "Oh shit, i dun understand a thing".

Leaving the lecture after it ended, spent some time in the library trying to look for related books. well i found 1 which is definitely related, it was the "productivity commissions's Broadcasting: Inquiry report 2000 and well... haha, its 400 pages. I tried to read some of it, but it was simply too much. filled with legal jargons and all. sigh... Well, i guess its trying to read and understand. next week suppossedly we would be though how to use the database properly to look for past media reforms and how it has affected us research kind of thingie. Well, i really duno how am i going to do a literature review, cos i do not understand much, and I can come out with my own points and arguments.

But the main thing is, the assignment is about the research methods used and how I should raise questions through this analysis i think. Using both research papers, and the contemporary media i.e. the newspapers, radio, news and etc.... Sigh... I need help.... I think i really will break down soon! ARGHZ!

-crazy-

Why is my external hard disk spoilt now??? Its so weird... It was working all the time and now it is not... What is wrong??? It did not dropped of anything and now, it aint working. Shit man! I am pissed! There goes all the movies and whatsnot... F*** Tmr i will bring it to a shop and see what is wrong, if its still something wrong, i guess i have to send it back home. Its still under warranty i THINK!!!!

-annoyed-

I just finished a movie "stranger den fiction". Ya, its last yr's movie which I did not catch at the cinemas... Somehow, the character Harold and Pascal, the love story tt evolved moved me, or to me more apt, reminded me partly of myself, just that I did not get a proper relationshop afterall. Harold is an IRAS employee, and he had to audit Ms Pascal, only to have Pascal making life hell for him. Ya, Pascal is the character that reminds me of myself. She made life miserable for Harold by having her accounts of 3 years in a mess, only to leave Harold to sort it out for her. But nonetheless, she stayed up to bake him cookies. An action that is moving.

I mean, she purposely made life hell, and said how much she loathed him, and to make life miserable for Harold. But to stay up the whole evening baking cookies for Harold; gosh, it just moved me to tears. She actually liked him, but did not make any obvious action. Harold was oblivious to this. I mean, just how dumb is he, but one cant blame him. His life revolved over a routine - wake up, brush teeth the same way and time everyday, made his tie the same way, counted the steps to the bus, had a set time for lunch and tea break, to have dinner alone and to sleep at 2330 sharp.

But the whole point of this entry, is to remind myself of how alike I have been in some part of the movie. Saying how much I hate a person, but still made the effort to show I care. Is this really right???? Is my life a story???

A story of me being a delinquent, who commited serious offences at the age of 12??? Moved on the Secondary education, made almost the same mistakes, took on an alternative lifestyle to move away from reality. Went on to tertiary education, where I took things for granted. Mum passed away.... Was enlisted for constriction, and somehow decided to sell my youth to the defence force. Went on and tried hard to top my Officer's course and got an award to experience life overseas.

Went through a tough time overseas at the beginning, where things did not go my way. Travelled about Europe after. Returned home after graduating from the Military College. Went on for OUT attachments in the force. Met new friends, some good, some not so good. People I treasured did not reciprocate. Went through a bad patch involving the law. Was at the deepest moments of 2006 and beginning 2007. And now, in Aussie, hoping for the best.

I mean - so far I have seen, my life has been a drama. Well, some people would call it melodramatic, but maybe in layman's term, "DRAMA QUEEN". Somethings, we jsut cant help it, things just happen, but they happen for a cause. Have I matured??? Its a question I have no answer to. But this book of my life, this journal, has listed my journey since I left for overseas training. I hope to keep it, to be able to reflect back and to treasure what I have.

My life is just another story.....

-ciaoz-

Well, orientation week sucks for sure! Such a waste of time... Well, sch is starting next week, and maybe i really aint much ready for it. I feel a lil miserable now... Its like so diff from poly days where maybe one do not have to take the modules or courses too seriously cos u noe u have ur lecturer notes. u noe somehow u would be able to pull through and not have much worries.

I read up on certain stuffs and borrowed textbooks from the library and tried to get started on my readings, well, its scary... Scary how I am unable to concentrate and am actually more worried about not being able to do well. Well, maybe this time I am more concerned cos I see actual cash going out to the Uni, and knowing how I cannot fail anything at all. Or maybe I am more mature? I duno man...

Is doing a degree really a good thing? I am unsure. I know I must do well and try to go for honour with a minimum of 2nd class honours, but now I am unsure of my own ability. I really aint much of a study person and I am worried.

Anyway, my own proper internet connection should be up next week, finally the landlord is doing it, and ya... No more stealing people's bandwidth. That is evil. Lent has started, and I hope to try to be sinless if possible. Hmmm, also I need a partner. I dun see how I can survive this without a physical and emotional support over here. But am worried about having a relationship as well... I duno wad I want. Everything seems to be in a labyrinth now. God help me man!

-ciaoz-

Well well, I did not realise that CNY arrived so soon.... And I thought New Year Eve was on Sunday.... Haha. Well, its kinda sad that I am unable to spend the festive season at home... Well, not really home sick yet, but you noe, just spend the time with peepz from home as compared to being all alone out here??? This week is orientation week, hmmm, looking at the programs, kinda a waste of time.

Cant wait for sch to start next week. I WANNA DO WELL with HONOURS!!!! But am kinda worried as well, I duno if I can cope or get used to studying again. Outta 4 modules I have this semester, 3 is examinable... Well, been a while since I took exams... Very worried... Cos there is no resits??? Sigh.... Can only as for strength and wisdom from from God and my mum man...

-ciaoz-

Well, last week at sch was not much of a help... Nah, not really not much of a help, but erm, haha, really not important. I guess the only important one was talking about plagarism... But still, nth much, did not talk much about referencing, so I guess I need to go find out from my own lecturers exactly what type of referencing they want. Well, finally today, weird of course, I managed to get my Mac to tap into other people network. Its damn cool! Really good to use a mac... So peepz, those of you especially who are doing design work, please go get a mac! Damn important!

Alright, coming week is orientation, hmmm.... should be boring.... will be looking out for the dive club, the rowing club and the 2 compulsary session that I have to attend. Wont bother attending the others which is a waste of time! Oh well....

-ciaoz-

Alright, got my new room today already, landlord says he will ask more peepz regarding internet before he installs... Hmmm, one of my housemates wants it, but his sister is asking if it is really necessary for him? Well, fingers crossed for me ya, I dun always wanna be tapping on peepz network or just go to sch for internet... Schs some distance away.... Anyway, here are the pictures...


On entering the door, see the wardrobe and the desk


Den got some round table thingie btw bed and desk with fan


My Bed


And chairs which the landlord say can use, look more homely...

Well, thats about it for the new room, hmmm, dun really seem like much of a picture taking, but just realised that I had to get my own pots and pans today, so just spend more money again... $$$$ sigh.... Gotta remember to get dish detergent, a chest of drawers for clothes cos the wardrobe dun have shelves to put clothes, toothpaste, salt and maybe few nice nice posters and send some pictures for print to do up my room further...

So far its alright, its about 7 minutes walk to the bus stop to go to sch, the major shopping centre is like 15 mins walk away; that is where fitness first is where I will try my best to be FIT, hmmm, Pizza Hut is 10 Mins walk away; its cheap pizza for students - large one for AUD6 and Dominoes just opp my place...

Next week doing some Academic Prep thingie for international students, but I guess am only interested in trying to check out about referencing and styles of writing.... Orientation begins 19th, hmmm, will be checking out the sports clubs much, cos I only have 2 compulsary session which I need to attend and otherwise, I have already sorted out most of my sch admin... Oh, just that for one module the bloody tutorial class is full!!!!!!! Dept said they will try to sort it out!!! and ya, SCH BOOKS ARE A BOMB!!!! I really hope that the books be able to be found in Singapore... Haha

Alright, for now...

-ciaoz-

Ok, already spent erm, 5 days here, well, things going on quite well... I really cant wait for classes to start. Most prob I think I would take a job, but probably only in 2nd Semester, cos I wanna see at least if I can handle the work load for the 1st Semester. Well, here is picture of my current accomodation, which I be moving out this weekend, to a bigger and better room maybe??? And prob friendly housemates...


Erm, when first going through the door... My laundry and clothes...


The main room, my bed and desk...


Awaiting to move out, so still unpacked


As mentioned, still unpacked

-ciaoz-

Am already in aussie, found an accomodation, but comes without internet. Now am in school trying to sign up for classes and see if I am able to get my student card, but apparently not, gotta wait till next monday i think. Hmmm, expensive bus rides man... Anyway, I guess all is well and hopefully the landlord is actually gonna install the broadband services? Oh well

-ciaoz-

lost my earring again. Is this a bad omen for what would be coming??? Am i getting too superstitous? I duno... I feel like shit today... My Gucci pouch buckle broke and cut my finger with the broken buckle, and now Lost my earring... I think what is coming up is really bad.. Sigh. I feel damn miserable man...

-ciaoz-