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Ok, usual remedy to make me feel better! SHOPPING! not quite, dun seem to be helping. God, help me! sigh! almost few days have passed, and i aint feeling any better. I still feel like a failure even though i have put in so much effort.

I dun feel like travelling around with him during christmas. Sigh! All the talks about christmas plans. I hope i am asleep before he comes and look for me!

-ciaoz-

hmmm, i think michael would be the new college senior international cadet! its a college appointment! oh well it is quite obvious!!! ::disappointed::

I just dun understand why i am always behind others! Am i that bad or lousy? sometimes i just wished i had not come over! Things would have been better! Friends would no longer seem so far apart, i probably would not be behind should i have passed out of OCS in terms of courses that i need!

What have i gained since i got here? More weight? More mature? More "Friends"? Are these really important? Have i lost so much of myself here? I have changed, but maybe not for the better! I am just so disappointed! Lost so much more faith in myself!

I admit, michael is better den me! point taken and proven!

-ciaoz-

been really busy! more responsibilities which i dun like! trying to learn new stuffs esp academics! Started on french, erm, getting the basics quite alright! erm, still have no partners! tt's it for now!

-ciaoz-

Erm, I duno how to type and talk about everything. Hope the pictures tell about my sailing trip. Though it is not a many, it did cover almost everything that needs to be told! there is some problems with stupid photobucket! grr, so outta four pics, i only have two! sorry!





-ciaoz-

Heya, back in college after a long time at sea. Well, really really busy now! I try to update everything asap!

ciaoz