Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Really really tired... Just came back from Dayang yesterday. Beautiful divesite... But really tiring. Being a rescue diver or a divermaster trainee is probably not an easy job. Another busy week has started, alot of disagreement with certain thinking of others. Cant wait to leave ship... A fren called b******, whom now is more of an acquaintance is probably the main reason to leave ship! You noe wad, cant wait to leave the ship!!!!
-ciaoz-
fallen @ 2:38 AM
Monday, October 30, 2006
haven been updating for a while, very tired, busy at work doing some video stuffs and i just came back from a dive. sprained my ankle in the last week, but its recovering. am still pretty sad over some stuffs, life has been kinda sad of late. Oh well.... laters
-ciaoz-
fallen @ 2:58 AM
Monday, October 23, 2006
These lyric is an app description of how I am feeling. Oh well... Cest La Vie... Should I really leave the ship for another platform??? I really want to, but there are things holding me back... Sigh.... I must be strong and move on...
Ya, since I started diving, i have garnered such strong interest that I am pursuing further education in it. Its kinda scary seeing the amount of money that I am spending on diving. Currently its mainly spending on courses, non including equipments. I wanna get my own fins, most prob Jet Fins.
Also, would definitely need a wet suit... ;) More money spent again, sigh... Anyway
Here goes:
I thought you were my best friend
I felt we'd be together 'til the end
You're not the girl I once knew
Tell me where she is 'cause she's not you
You used to be that shoulder
That shoulder I could lean on through it all
But now it's getting colder
There's no love between these walls
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy
It's such an evil thing to watch someone like you
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy
Nobody wins when you're full of envy
La, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
I was always happy
When I was watchin' you become a star
But you were only happy
When the world was openin' up my scars
And now I'm like the devil
Well if I am then what does that make you
You sold yourself for your fame
You'd still never walk a day in my shoes
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy
It's such an evil thing to watch someone like you
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy
Nobody wins when you're full of envy
La, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
I only wanted what was best for you
Everything I did, I did because I cared
So how did all the good between us turn so bad?
Maybe someday we'll get back, what we had
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy
It's such an evil thing to watch someone like you
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy
It's such an evil thing to watch someone like you
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy
It's such an evil thing to watch someone like you
Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy (Jealousy)
Nobody wins when you're full of envy
La, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
-ciaoz-
fallen @ 12:46 PM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
well, 2 things to celebrate about. Firstly, it hasbeen 3 weeks, and no news has been heard yet. 2ndly, Maj Clarence has finally given the go ahead for me to change platform. I am excited, but yet pretty scared. Oh well...
-ciaoz-
fallen @ 5:30 PM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Maybe things are getting better. I duno... Anyway, ya, was the sword bearer for Goh Tan Wedding. A few pics, not much of a photo whore today, but maybe most of the pic did not turn out nice... Very tired now.
Raymond and me
Roger and me
Sword Bearers
With the bride
-ciaoz-
fallen @ 3:49 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Well, alot has been happening.... I duno how to put it into words.... I just came back from tioman again as well, no pics, cos my bro not around to take pics.... Sigh.... Well, for sure I am hooked on diving, however, sometimes when i dive, i get claustophobic suddenly... Scary.... But anyway, the worse thing is, I am taking so much diving courses its burning a large hole in my pocket. Yupz, so no more clubbing and overspending for the coming month..., Oh well....
I miss a person very much.... Miss everything about the person.... I know it sounds weird... But I really did miss the person..... Sigh.... "Though everything is falling down on me, i just need you to be around... Just a text or hearing you pulls everything together for me again... I know at times I sound irritated with you, but its me, I just dun believe it is happening to me... I know its wrong, but I cant help it... I dun wan it to happen, i try to forget you as a crush and its part of growing up, but... I dun ask for anything... just friendship"
-ciaoz-
fallen @ 12:23 AM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
For a period of time, i thought i was happy being onboard PUNGGOL, that I met someone who can relate to me, someone who might be close... But I was wrong... The once happy person I was has changed completely to one who is emotional and depressed. Yea, sometimes, the facade of bring happy is still there, but wad is the true meaning of happiness when it is not inside? I asked myself, is this really what I wan? Do i Really wanna be in the navy? Do i really wanna leave PUNGGOL and go to another ship? Have I made a wrong move and actually befriended a rating beyond the limits?
I always thought I am able to differentiate work and personal, however, I am getting quite annoyed and really upset where I seem to be taken for granted and is just always "annoying". Too annoying when care and concern is shown... Sometimes, its just about going out for a meal or a movie together with friends. Where they are care specially for you on your birthday. Where they noe u care for them and the reciprocate. Is it really hard?
Why is it that training always comes first? Is it so difficult to even just go out for a lil meal outside of work? Its hard as it is when there is a work barrier and limit to what we can and we cant do. It is damn annoying. And this coming weekend, off diving alone again? I am so sad, really upset. you noe like I would say in the past "WADEVA"
-sad-
fallen @ 12:07 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Well, its been a long time since i blogged, but it has also been the period which is the most sufferable. I duno, its a huge shit this time. I duno what I got myself into, and I cant forsee my own future anytime soon. I can only pray for things to get better. A friend which I quarelled with, or maybe wished was closed, had an argument, and finally I give up completely. Sometimes, friends can be more of a liability den an asset. And probably in this case, where I have been taken for granted on so many an occasion, the friend is probably a liability. Oh well.... Though I been trying hard to mend it, but, things are still diff. I am on the lowest point in my life, which I have not felt for a long time... Someone help....
-crying-
fallen @ 12:32 PM
